Deep Breath

I believe that every new beginning starts with a big deep breathe.

It's been a difficult couple of years but I'm learning and growing. I'm getting to know that adult I have become. The bumps in the road are real and they hurt but no country road is complete without the bumps and potholes. I'm trying to be okay with them. I know that the bumps will only make me a more genuine person, a person who appreciates what she has.

I have plenty to be thankful for but it's still okay to cry. This is the lesson that has been the most difficult for me to grasp. It's okay and normal and human to be both happy and sad. I learned this lesson years ago the first time I read The Perks of Being a Wallflower in high school but it never stuck. "So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad an I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."

You can take many interpretations out of this and my interpretation has changed over time. Now I think it just means that it's possible to have opposing feelings and still function. I used to be stronger and happier than I have been lately. I realize that I am still strong and happy. I am still that person. I have many layers and I'm going to love every one of them. They make me who I am.