Update

I would prefer to be accountable and consistent so here I am again.

I didn't start a load of laundry and I didn't go to the gym. But I did re-write my blog post after losing it, which is like posting three times in a day. I did start on my closet, folding up some clothes and putting aside the things I will most likely wear this week. I also took the stairs to move my car at work; 7 flights straight up I've decided that counts for something in the workout department when added to walking around/ browsing at Target. I didn't buy a thing and I'm so proud of myself for it.

So I'm gonna try and throw in a load of gym clothes when I get home from work. Because if I haven't gone to bed yet it still counts as getting it done yesterday :)

But we'll see just how tired I am when I get home. I know it will only take me 10 minutes tops but there's the digging through the laundry basket to sort stuff that will get me all worked up being in a rush right before bed.

Like I said, we'll see :)

PS- Yes I am on the east coast but I work overnights. Hope you don't mind weird hour postings.

Each Day

So I just lost my whole post! Arrrg

The list grows and grows each day with the to-do's that I need to accomplish before my life, the life I want, will start. It's a counter-intuitive mindset. Life doesn't wait until you're ready to start living it.

The laundry will continue to pile up until there's nothing to wear. The dishes will topple until there's none left to eat off of. And the closet will bulge every time you open until you can't hide it anymore. A little is better than none. And each day spent on the couch is only hurting your desire to get back in shape. So today I will throw in a load of laundry. I'll go to the gym for the 5th time in eight days :) And I'll grab some clothes to last the week off the floor of my closet (all clean I swear haha) and tackle the mess little by little.

It's a start.

I have a few ideas for my next few blog posts and the direction I want this blog to go in but just like my life it's a work in progress. It's my place, my starting point, and I love it!

Deep Breath

I believe that every new beginning starts with a big deep breathe.

It's been a difficult couple of years but I'm learning and growing. I'm getting to know that adult I have become. The bumps in the road are real and they hurt but no country road is complete without the bumps and potholes. I'm trying to be okay with them. I know that the bumps will only make me a more genuine person, a person who appreciates what she has.

I have plenty to be thankful for but it's still okay to cry. This is the lesson that has been the most difficult for me to grasp. It's okay and normal and human to be both happy and sad. I learned this lesson years ago the first time I read The Perks of Being a Wallflower in high school but it never stuck. "So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad an I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."

You can take many interpretations out of this and my interpretation has changed over time. Now I think it just means that it's possible to have opposing feelings and still function. I used to be stronger and happier than I have been lately. I realize that I am still strong and happy. I am still that person. I have many layers and I'm going to love every one of them. They make me who I am.